Reflections on 2024

Each year at this time, I pause to reflect on the past year – what went well, what didn’t, what I learned, and how I grew.

Most of you have only gotten to know me recently through my posts, which I share not to glorify my journey but to inspire others to find the courage to make shifts, take action, and grasp life fully.

Last night, I found notes from six or seven years ago during one of my lowest periods after returning to Sydney from the UK. I was beginning to take responsibility for my mental health, but life felt overwhelming.

Here’s a sample of what I wrote back then - verbatim :

- First comes the Panic attacks - miserable - Stress, anger, frustration, screaming out, heart races, clenched fists, slam things, nausea. I want to throw things, smash things, but manage not to.

- I am seriously distressed

- I am failing, it wasn’t meant to be like this, this is not who I am, fear of running out of money, and the consequences of that

- I can’t handle this. No-one here helps me. I have to suffer alone

- Every time I get a setback I have to pick myself up again, by myself, without help

- I’m worried about my mental health

- Why bother ?

- I can’t cope

That's where I was just a few years ago.

At the time, I relied on my doctor and saw psychologists, had mental health plans, called crisis lines, and took antidepressants - all while navigating my gender transition, struggling with finances, and watching my mum succumb to dementia.

Fast forward to the end of 2024, and I’m so proud of how far I’ve come.

Most people can’t imagine what it was like to live in the wrong body, but here’s the truth: I've made two transitions & changing gender was FAR easier than changing the mindset, habits, and behaviours of a lifetime !!

And now, this year, I have finally found that, after 65 years, I am NO LONGER FRIGHTENED !!

This is seriously epic for me !

Although 2024 wasn’t without challenges - housing and safety concerns, financial struggles, and unresolved court cases - it was the year I discovered true FREEDOM: living unburdened, trusting my wits and the universe.

I travelled solo through Europe for three months, including two months in France speaking French. Now in Alice Springs, I’m road-tripping through Eastern Australia, speaking about truth, authenticity, personal power, trans and LGBTQ+ issues, and empowering others to live their truest lives.

If you know of stages or community groups that would welcome a guest speaker these next few months across NT, SA, VIC, TAS, ACT, NSW, or QLD, let me know !

So, what did YOU discover about yourself this year ?

I hope 2024 was epic for you and that 2025 brings everything you dream of and more.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 🎉

Love, Bobbi 🩷